About me n him...

Mula2 jumpa 8 January 2012 hummm memandangkn mak dah bsuara n he let me go n i decide to follow the faith that come to me n i give som1 change to come inside my world..so bbalik kpd pjumpaan me n him... Mula nk pg merdeka mall tgok wayang kol 1 brangkat cta kol 2 stgh kot klu xsilap so mek 2 mkn lok sbb nya tahan lapar dr pg da la ada prob ngan prut xapat lmbt mkn..

Mula2 jmpa
Die... Assalammualaikum hai
Me.....Waalaikumsalam hai
Arjkkk elek wat slamba cold inside..n tgok wayang abz pg marina bay alu jd tpt fav dah nk gelap pg mkn lg n kwn nya pun nk dtg n nya dgn selambanya suruh aku jd gf nya ermm n aku diam jak nya nk show off ngan kwn nya.. N bila kwn nya soal aku sepa nya sepak kaki aku aiii cantekk..aku pun diam jak coz aku tok adik kwn cdak nya malu ofcoz whatever...

Our relationship bmula dgn semadi n 2 2 tahu..mulakn hubungan dgn jujur n ikhlas nya tauk aku trima nya sbb mak ngan kkak ku..n nya pulak sbb nk cari bini coz nk lupakn someone yg nya kejar2 3 tahun p xapat..so sama2 la ada keinginan masing2..coba bina hidup baru dgn stranger..

Tanpa pengetahuanku nya msg2 ngan kkak ku suruh kkak ku mdah ngan mak ku nya nk melamar.smua kburukan ku dah d selongkar nya habis2an so xapat nk tapok2 xdpt nk jd mastery . N nya melamar bila kali kedua mek 2 bjmpa aku sambut dgn lawak bodo b tetak sndiri...n nya blur..

My parent xda paksa aku suruh ku kawin tp sbg sorg ank aku gembira bt org tua ku senang ati lau ikotkn aku n pilihan hati ku smua ya hanya mendatangkn bantahan n si dia pun suruh i dgr ckp my parent so i  just wonder that he let me go n i accept event i dont want to...

N mek org btkol 25 march 2012.. With him for a few month is my miserable day coz he cant accept me just the way i am its killing me n make me miss som1 event more i cant accept this faith.. Bila jam dah dkt mek 2 sempat gadoh g n he angry for nothing i go here n there..do everything..cleans everything n he just angry wif me i feel so down This is not right.. N my immature friend give me idea to run away i ask her way i want to run n she said we can go to the beach...i feel wtf its not soft my prob it's make my prob getting worse.. Than i decide to stay ermm..n stop crying... On that day i smoking a lot n i become a smoker for a few month..

Everyone relies that I've change.. Coz i have to change if not every night we argue about this n that. . he want me to  change how i dress no makeup no high heel..mesti btudung..event my friend he want me 2 change arghhh it's fookin killing me...

After abis btkol aku kuar bfoya2 ngan kwn2 ku lepas tension tp sntiasa tmenung jauh n mengalirkn air mata...jiwa lara...tp cta lom abz pa kata org bsusah2 dahulu..

N that's my face after btekol n bena2 menangis pe tsedu2...mbak muka dak ya nyarong cincin nang cantek tp leh senyum spt biasa...